Brain_steW

Dio che tristezza. E che schifo.
Ovunque mi giri,intorno a me c'è solo merda.
Mi sento sola e invisibile.
Scivolo via veloce sotto gli occhi della gente.
Come un'ombra opaca e flebile,mi proietto sulla mia fredda lapide.
Ci sono,ma non esisto.

Buio.

Writer: ~BrAiNsTeW
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domenica, 16 dicembre 2007 15:02
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Dovrei essere felice. E' mia amica, ce l'ha fatta anche grazie a me.
Avrebbe lasciato perdere se non ci fossi stata io. Eppure perchè mi da fastidio?
E' una merda di voto,schifoso e insignificante. E' un millesimo in più.
E poi li so tutti,perchè ho sbagliato? Cosa non mi ricordavo?
Vaffanculo,per me era importante.

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lunedì, 08 ottobre 2007 12:52
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Non ho niente da fare, e quindi scrivo.
No, in realtà dovrei fare, ma non faccio.
Ma perchè ogni volta che penso alla vita, la mia vita, mi si stringe lo stomaco, ho la nausea e vorrei non essere mai esistita o magari aver la possibilità di ricominciare tutto da zero,senza che nessuno mi abbia mai vista o conosciuta, senza un passato, senza una storia, senza nessun ricordo?
Forse perchè la parte che devo recitare non corrisponde esattamente a ciò che vorrei essere davvero. O magari perchè non voglio accettare che quella persona, quell'immagine indistinta che si riflette sui gelidi specchi, quella ragazza senza un contorno, senza un lienamento, quella figura indefinita e opaca, e vuota, e spenta, sia davvero io.
In entrambi i casi, che schifo.
L'unica cosa di cui, invece, mi sto privando è il futuro.
Non è continuando a graffiare le mie ferite che vado avanti.
Non è scrivendo qui che vado avanti.
Anzi vado indietro, cammino all'indietro, mi guardo indietro, e rivivo ciò che è stato. Come una pellicola cinematografica che scorre al contrario, come una sequenza di foto sfogliate dalla più recente alla più polverosa. Eppure è proprio sulle fotografie coperte di polvere che lascio le mie impronte, ed è proprio per loro che sono diventata la persona che ora mi ritrovo ad essere. Quella che cerco davanti ad uno specchio, quella di cui cerco un riflesso sui vetri, quella che vorrei riuscire a dipingere su di un foglio per poter finalmente dire: ecco, questa è Ylenia.
Ma l'unico modo per poter studiare quell'immagine affinchè riesca ad assimilarne tutti gli aspetti, nella loro completezza, è non esserla. Non essere quella persona.
Perchè per riuscire a rappresentarla, dovrei guardarmi dentro.
E guardarmi dentro significherebbe soffiare via la nebbia da ciò che sto cercando di rimuovere con forza, guardarmi dentro vorrebbe dire smetterla di nascondere a me stessa tutto ciò che non voglio vedere, per poi aprire gli occhi e analizzarne ogni sfaccettatura.
Ma non posso. Non voglio.
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martedì, 25 settembre 2007 14:55
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~ Bleah.

Che schifo,mi vien da vomitare.
Ho nausea. E voglia di piangere.
Mah,sono idiota infondo.
Son la prima a dire che è stata una,anzi, la sua decisione
e poi a chiedermi il perchè abbia scelto proprio quella strada.
Bhè,spero che tu abbia fatto una buona scelta,magari là c'è la tua vita,quella che cercavi
e ora riesci finalmente a tastare ciò che prima nemmeno era in grado di sfiorarti.
O forse è stata solo la fine di un'altra esistenza.
In ogni caso è stata la scelta giusta,perchè quella che volevi.

R.I.P.

Grazie,Kurt ♥.

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sabato, 01 settembre 2007 19:02
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SSSSH.

I need S I L E N C E

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giovedì, 23 agosto 2007 11:07
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E' da tanto che non scrivo.
Mi chiedevo il perchè..
Forse sono annoiata dall'idea di dover raccontare sempre tutto a qualcuno. No. Io non devo dire niente a nessuno,perchè dovrei farlo? Mmh, perchè ''mivoletebeneevoleteaiutarmi'' suppongo. Scommetto che questa è la vostra risposta.
Nah,non è per quello invece. Il voler bene significa anche essere capaci di capire QUANDO è necessario che si racconti, e QUANDO no. Nel momento in cui insistete senza che ce ne sia bisogno è per sporco egoismo, solo quello. O per questione di principio,o per orgoglio, o magari per semplicissima e spicciola voglia di farsi i cazzi degli altri.
Puah,che schifo.
Tenetevi per voi le vostre frustrazioni o i vostri complessi di inferiorità,chiaro? Io ho i miei problemi,voi i vostri,siete adulti per dio.
Invece scrivere è diverso. La carta c'è sempre,la carta ascolta ma non parla,la carta assorbe ma tace. Puoi sputar fuori tutto quello che hai dentro su di lei, e lei rimarrà impassibile. Puoi anche accartocciare il foglio, o cancellare le parole,se ti va. Lei non reagisce. L'unico modo che ha per ribellarsi è di raccontare. Non curante di chi ha davanti,ovviamente. Lì sì che ti fotte.
Alla fine t u t t i sono capaci di fotterti..

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lunedì, 30 luglio 2007 14:02
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Sai cosa?
VAFFANCULO
mi fate tutti schifo.

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sabato, 16 giugno 2007 16:05
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~ thought

E' tutto così fottutamente semplice
quando senti il cuore dentro di te
hai mai provato ad ascoltarlo
davvero?
Pulsa.Silenzioso.
Il suo respiro ci sfugge
scivola via indiscreto senza che nessuno se ne curi,
sappiamo che esiste perchè ci fa esistere
ma lo sentiamo?
è proprio ciò che è invisibile agli occhi
che non giunge alle nostre orecchie
che non tocca i nostri sensi
quel che in realtà è essenziale.
Ed è così fantastico quando prendiamo coscienza dell'esistenza di un cuore
non grazie a nozioni scientifiche che abbiamo studiato
ma quando lo sentiamo gridare dentro di noi
quando esplode e ricopre le nostre viscere di sangue freddo
gelido e tagliente
che giunge fino in bocca
puoi sentirne il sapore

Io lo amo ♥.

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mercoledì, 13 giugno 2007 13:49
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TI AMO
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sabato, 02 giugno 2007 11:27
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~ Distrutta

Stanotte non ho chiuso occhio.
Temporale schifoso.[come se le altre notti riuscissi a dormire u.u]
Anche Dio si incazza allora,eh? Ma p e r c h è deve farlo di notte che io devo dormire?-.-
Mio caro Signore Onnipotente Cristificato, forse tu n o n hai da studiare t u t t o il g i o r no latino,greco storia o geografia. BHè IO Sì.
Quindi evita di disturbare il mio tentativo di prendere sonno,per cortesia.
Ok,lo ammetto. Sono solo gelosa.
Anche io voglio gridare al mondo la mia rabbia, ma perchè Lui può e io no?
E' vero, a tratti la sua ira,il temporale che scatena,fa paura..però in questo modo riesce ad esprimere il suo stato d'animo con dei semplici rumori,non ha bisogno di parlare,spiegare il motivo per il quale è adirato,grida e basta. Fa disastri,provoca catastrofi, ma non viene punito,perchè n u l l a è più potente di lui,n i e n t e è più forte.
Allora non sei poi così tanto grande,Dio,sei solo un vigliacco che sa di poter fare ciò che vuole,come vuole.quando vuole,senza che nessuno glielo impedisca.

Ti sei divertito abbastanza con me?

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mercoledì, 02 maggio 2007 14:48
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This Version

Kurt Cobain version ♥

<< E mentre giaccio qui guardando al cielo Il mio corpo è insensibile e la mia gola è secca E mentre giaccio dimenticato e solo Senza alcuna lacrima, urlo il mio ultimo gemito. Io sono colui che non ha nascita, L'angelo caduto che ti sorveglia.
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Love

Amo parlare con i miei amici fino a che non mi si secca la bocca. Amo ascoltare la musica . Amo il Rock. Amo fare la scema in giro. Amo farmi prendere per una malata mentale dicendo cose sconnesse. Amo le sorprese. Amo i concerti dei Green Day. Amo scrivere. Amo disegnare. Amo parlare inglese. Amo collezionare spille. Amo dormire(quando ci riesco). Amo cantare. Amo i baci. Amo gli abbracci. Amo le coccole. Amo ridere. Amo l'inverno. Amo smerdare gli idioti. Amo i teschietti >. Amo guardare i poster in camera mia. Amo la pizza. Amo il cioccolato fondente *ç*. Amo vestirmi come voglio. Amo la pioggia .Amo la mia matita nera. Amo le mie cravatte. Amo le converse. Amo essere consolata. Amo essere ascoltata. Amo sentirmi leggera. Amo il caffè . Amo sognare ad occhi aperti. Amo illudermi fino alla fine. Amo essere testarda. Amo la Broccolo . Amo latino. Amo le guancie di qualsiasi essere XD. Amo Laura et Luca♥. Amo la voce di Luca *ç*. Amo fumare. Amo stare da sola.

Hate

Odio i finti amici. Odio me stessa. Odio Mtv. Odio i truzzacci. Odio essere incompresa. Odio essere fraintesa. Odio la musica house, disco e quella merda lì. Odio le persone che la ascoltano e ci ballano sopra con entusiasmo. Odio la discoteca e tutti quei postacci ad essa correlati. Odio la falsità. Odio il riso(inteso come pasta XD). Odio i miei ex compagni di classe . Odio perdonare chi non lo meriterebbe. Odio il mondo e la società odierna. Odio gli snob. Odio le bambole di plastica del fottuto pop. Odio l'ipocrisia. Odio le oche. Odio i superficiali. Odio il mare. Odio gli ingoranti che fanno i saccenti. Odio non riuscire a spiegare cosa è per me la musica. Odio gli sport. Odo i copioni. Odio la moda. Odio le catene[quelle dei messaggi asd]. Odio l'omologazione. Odio i burattini del sistema che ne vanno fieri [scommetto che a qualcuno fischiano le orecchie, vero?]. Odio essere paragonata a qualsiasi cosa , persona, o situazione. Odio cercare di addormentarmi di forza, e non riuscirci. Odio essere pigra. Odio non riuscire in un'impresa nonostante mi ci impegni con l'anima. Odio i reality. Odio la tv. Odio il francese. Odio i pregiudizi. Odio essere miope. Odio il mio carattere. Odio chi giudica senza conoscere. Odio stare in mezzo a tanta gente. Odio essere costretta a fare cosec he non voglio fare. Odio la compassione. Odio I sorrisi finti. E probabilmente odio anche te che stai leggendo.

Music

♥AC/DC
♥Black Sabbath
♥Distillers
♥Evanescence
♥From First To Last
♥Lacuna Coil
♥Green Day
♥Guns N' Roses
♥Hole
♥Iron Maiden
♥Judas Priesr
♥Led Zeppelin
♥Manowar
♥Marilyn Manson
♥Metallica
♥Nirvana
♥Pink Floyd
♥Queen
♥Ramones
♥Scorpions
♥Sex Pistols
♥Skid Row
♥System of a Down
♥The Clash
♥Viboras

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Desperates Words

Hey there lookin' at me Tell me what do you see But you quickly turn your head away Try to find the words I could use Don't have the courage to come up to you My chance is looking a bit gray
I've gone thru pain Every day and night I feel my mind is going insane Something I can't fight
Here we go again, infatuation Touches me just when I Thought that it would end
Every night I dream the same dream Of getting older all the time I ask you now, what does this mean? Are these problems just in my mind? Things are easy when you're a child But now these pressures have dropped on my head The length I've gone are just long miles Would they be shorter if I were dead Every time I look in my past I always wish I was there I wish my youth would forever last Why are these times so unfair
I always waste my time just wondering What the next man thinks of me I'll never do exactly what I want And I'll sculpt my life for your acceptance
I feel forgotten Feel like rotting (Do you feel the same?) (Do you feel the same?) Adolescence Just can't make sense (It's calling my name) (It's calling my name) I take a look around And all the things I've found I call it blind hatred If you'd stop a while And maybe if you'd smile You would realize that We're all the same It's just like our brain When it apes insane We feel the same pain
I do not mind if all I am is Just a friend to you But all I want to know right now Is if you think about me too... ?
I sit in the state of a daydream With all of your words flying over my head Even more time gets wasted In a daze
I lockmyself inside my room I wanna be alone With you around, you'll only add on I wanna be alone Just let me be alone with my thoughts I wanna be alone With you around, you'll only add on I wanna be alone Please don't think I'm crazy I don't want you to understand My mind is growing hazy To hell with your helping hand Why don't you just leave me alone This conflict is my own Keep your sources away from me That's all
I hold my breath and close my eyes and dream about her Cause she's 2000 light years away She holds my malakite so tight so... Never let go Cause she's 2000 light years away I sit outside and watch the sunrise Lookout as far as I can I can't see her, but in the distance I hear some laughter, We laugh together
I'm losing what's left of my dignity A small price to pay to see that you'r happy Forget all the disappointments you have faced Open up your worried world and let me in
My friends are gone I've got nothing to do So I sit here patiently Watching the clock tick so slowly Gotta get away Or my brains will explode Give me something to do to kill some time Take me to that place that I call home Take away the strains of being lonely Take me to the tracks at Christie Road
I wonder down these streets all by myself Think of my future now I just don't know I don't seem to care
When I was younger I thought the world circled around me But in time I realized I was wrong My immortal thoughts turned into just dreams of a dead future It was a tragic case of my reality Do you think you're indestructible And no one can touch you? Well I think you're disposable And it's time you knew the truth Cause it's just one of my lies! Why does my life have to be so small? Yet death is forever And does forever have a life to call its own? Don't give me an answer cause you Only know as much as I know Unless you're been there once Well I hardly think so I used to pray all night Before I lay myself down My mother said it was right Her mother said it too... Why?
My mental stability reaches its bitter end And all my senses are coming unglued Is there any cure for this disease someone called love Not as long as there are girls like you Sometimes I wonder if I should be left alone And lock myself up in a padded room I'd sit and spew my guts out to the open air No one wants to hear a drunken fool.
Time passes by like lightning Before you know it you're struck down I always waste my time on my chemical emotions It keeps my head spinning around.
Why should my fun have to end? For me it's only the beginning I see my friends begin to age A short countdown to what end Call me irresponsible Call me habitual But when you think of me Do you fill your head with schemes Better think again Cause no one knows I don't want to cause no harm But sometimes my actions hurt Is there something I should find To make plans for forever Does it seem like all your memories fad You soak up knowledge to fill the space And still my answer remains... I don't know
Was it just a dream that happened long ago? Oh well.. Never mind.
Tell me the words I might have said That's pumping pressure deep inside my head Was it bad enough to be too late? Just tell me the words I might have ate
I declare I don't care no more I'm burning up and out and growing bored In my smoked out boring room My hair is shagging in my eyes Dragging my feet to hit the street tonight To drive along these shit town lights I'm not growing up I'm just burning out And I stepped in line to walk amongst the dead Apathy has rained on me Now I'm feeling like a soggy dream So close to drowning but I don't mind I've lived inside this mental cave Throw my emotions in the grave hell, who needs them anyway
I'm taking all you down with me Explosives duct taped to my spine Nothings gonna change my mind I won't listen to anyone's last words There's nothing left for you to say Soon you'll be dead anyway No one here is getting out alive This time I've really lost my mind and I don't care So close your eyes And kiss yourself goodbye And think about the times you spent and what they've meant To me it's nothing... I'm losing all my happiness The happiness you pinned on me Loneliness still comforts me My anger dwells inside of me I'm taking it all out on you And all the shit you put me through Do you ever thing back to another time? Does it bring you so down that you thought you lost you're mind? Do you ever want to lead a long trail of destruction and mow down any bullshit that confronts you? Do you ever build up all the small things in your head? To make one problem that adds up to nothing To me its nothing...
Sit around and watch the tube, but nothing's on Change the channels for an hour or two Twiddle my thumbs just for a bit I'm sick of all the same old shit In a house with unlocked doors And I'm fucking lazy Bite my lips and close my eyes Take me away to paradise I'm so damn bored I'm going blind! And I smell like shit
Looking out my window for Someone that's passing by No one knows I'm locked in here All I do is cry
Do you have the time to listen to me whine About nothing and everything all at once I am one of those Melodramatic fools Neurotic to the bones No doubt about it Sometimes I give myself the creeps Sometimes my mind plays tricks on me It all keeps adding up I think I'm cracking up Am I just paranoid? Or am I just stoned
She... She screams in silence A sullen riot penetrating through her mind Waiting for a sign To smash the silence with the brick of self-control Are you locked up in a world That's been planned out for you? Are you feeling like a social tool without a use? Scream at me until my ears bleed I'm taking heed just for you She... She's figured out All her doubts were someone else's point of view Waking up this time To smash the silence with the brick of self-control
Well, I'm a waste like you With nothing else to do May I waste your time too?
I'm a loser and a user so I don't need no accuser to try and slag me down because I know I'm right
Seventeen and strung out on confusion Trapped inside a roll of disillusion I found out what it takes to be a man Well, Mom and Dad will never understand Secrets collecting dust but never forget Skeletons come to life in my closet I found out what it takes to be a man Well, Mom and Dad will never understand What's happening to me
I saw my friend the other day and I don't know Exactly just what he became
You're just... a fuck, I can't explain it 'cause I think you suck. I'm take-in pride in telling you to fuck off and die.
Stranded...lost inside myself My own worst friend My own closest enemy Branded...maladjusted Never trusted anyone Let alone myself I must insist On being a pessimist I'm a loner in a catastrophic mind Elected the rejected I perfected the science of the idiot No meaning...no healing Self loathing freak and introverted deviot
I'm just a mutt And nowhere is my home Where dignity's a land mine In the school of lost hope I've panhandled for a life because I'm not afraid to beg Hand me down your lost and founds Of second hand regret You better swallow your pride Or you're gonna choke on it You better digest your values Because they turn to shit Honour’s gonna knock you down Before your chance to stand up and fight I know I'm not the one I got no pride Sects of disconnection And traditions of lost faith No culture's worth a stream of piss Or a bullet in my face To hell with unity Separation’s gonna kill us all Torn to shreds and disjointed Before the final fall
Ready for a cheap escape On the brink of self destruction Widespread panic Broken glass inside my head Bleeding down these thoughts of Anguish... mass confusion The world is a sick machine Breeding a mass of shit With such a desolate conclusion Fill the void with... I don't care There's a plague inside of me Eating at my disposition Nothing's left Torn out of reality Into a state of no opinion Limp with hate
Destiny is dead In the hands of bad luck Before it might have made some sense But now it's all fucked up
I'm having trouble trying to sleep I'm counting sheep but running out As time ticks by And still I try No rest for cross tops in my mind On my own... here we go My eyes feel like they're gonna bleed Dried up and bulging out my skull My mouth is dry My face is numb Fucked up and spun out in my room On my own... here we go My mind is set on overdrive The clock is laughing in my face A crooked spine My sense dulled Passed the point of delirium On my own... here we go
I was a young boy that had big plans Now I'm just another shitty old man I don't have fun and I hate everything The world owes me so fuck you
We're living in repetition Content in the same old shtick again Now the routine's turning to contention Like a production line going over and over and over roller coaster Now I cannot speak, I lost my voice I'm speechless and redundant 'Cause I love you's not enough I'm lost for words Choreographed and lack of passion Prototypes of what we were Went full circle 'til I'm nauseous Taken for granted now Now I waste it, faked it,ate it now I hate it
Another sentimental argument and bitter love. Fucked without a kiss again and dragged it through the mud.
Your rise and fall, back up against the wall What goes around is coming back and haunting you It's time to quit 'cause you ain't worth the shit Under my shoes or the piss on the ground No one loves you and you know it Don't pretend that you enjoy it or you don't care 'Cause now I wouldn't lie or tell you all the things you wanna hear 'Cause I hate you I heard you're sick, sucked on that cancer stick A throbbing tumour and a radiation high Shit out of luck, and now your time is up It brings me pleasure just to know your gonna die Dickhead, fuckface Cock smoking, mother fucking asshole Dirty twat, waste of semen I hope you die Red eye, code blue, I'd like to strangle you And watch your eyes bulge right out of your skull When you go down head first into the ground I'll stand above you just to piss on your grave
Sometimes I need to apologize Sometimes I need to admit that I ain't right Sometimes I should just keep my mouth shut, or only say hello Sometimes I still feel I'm walking alone
Who the hell are you to tell me what I am And what's my master plan What makes you think that it includes you? Self-righteous wealth
Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to do So make the best of this test and don't ask why It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right I hope you had the time of your life So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind Hang it on a shelf of good health and good time Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial For what it's worth, it was worth all the while
question everything? or shut up and be the victim of authority
today is the frist day of the rest of our life tomorrow is too late to pretend everything's allright I'm not getting any younger as long as you don't get any older I'm not going to state that yesterday never was Bloodshot deadbeat and lack of sleep making your mascara bleed tears down in your face leaving traces in my mistakes if I promise to go to church on sunday will you go with me on friday night? if you live with me, I'll die for you and this compromise I hereby solemny swear to tell the whole truth and nothing but the truth is what I'll ever hear from you "trust" is a dirtyt word that comes only from such a liar but "respect" is something I will earn if you have faith
He's a victim of his own time in his "vintage suit" and tie he's casuality dressed to the teeth in the latest genocide the new seasons come and go at the dog and pony show gonna sit and beg and fetch the names and fallow the dress codes what's in a name?...hey she's a scented magazine looking sharp and living clean living well and dressed to kill but she look like hell to me so when you're dancing through the wordrobe do the anorex -a go-go cloaked with style for pedophiles as the credit card explodes you auctioned off your life for the most expensiove price going once...going twice... now it's gone
when you lost all hope and excuses and the cheapsketes & the losers nothing's left to cling onto you got to hold on to yourself
I want to be the minority I don't need your authority Down with the moral majority I want to be the minority I pledge allegiance To the underworld One nation underdog There of which I stand alone A face in the crowd Unsung against the mold Without a doubt Singled out, the only way I know Stepped out of the line like a sheep runs from the herd marching out of time to my own beat now the only one I know One light one mind flashing in the dark blinded by the silence of a thousand broken hearts for crying out loud, she screamed unto me a free for all Fuck them all you are your own sight
give me something that I need satisfaction guaranteed to you what's the consolation prize? economy sized dreams of hope when I was a kid i thought I wanted all the things that I haven't got oh, I learned the hardest way
Where you go you'll know I'll be there If you go far you'll know I'll be there I'll go anywhere So I'll see you there You pace the name you know I'll be there You name the time you know I'll be there I'll go anywhere So I'll see you there I don't care if you don't mind I'll be there not far behind I will then keep in mind I'll be there for you When there's a truth you know I'll be there I'm most alive you know I'll be there I'll go anywhere So I'll see you there I don't care if you don't mind I'll be there not far behind I will then keep in mind I'll be there for you If you should fall you know I'll be there To catch your call you know I'll be there I'll go anywhere So I'll see you there I don't care if you don't mind I'll be there not far behind I will then keep in mind I don't care....... I'll be there for you
My friend drove off the other day, And now he's gone and all they say, Is you gotta live cause life goes on But now I see i'm mortal too I can't live my life like you Gotta live it up while life goes on And I think it's alright That I do what I like cause that's the way I wanna live And so I give And i'm still giving
So when you think you're all alone, No one's left to come around, Drop like fliesand empathize, Cause I know that I will someday, And I know that I will suffocate, Suffocate, suffocate, suffocate.
Clenching my teeth tight My head is like a sponge Give it to me free I wanna get ripped off And drown in the airwaves Another fatal wreck On the information highway So go ahead and kill yourselves It all amuses me For I'll be damned to spend my life in hell Another wise ingrate Bring me blood and pain Of a stranger's fate Give it all away Gimme, gimme now I'm desensitized I wanna watch the bomb Blow the masses high
Wanna be a pretty boy Wanna go on Solid Gold Wanna date a millionaire Wanna make people stare I wanna be on T.V. Want people to know me I want to be on T.V. Started out in 64 Gonna be an omnivore Wanna make people dance Gonna take off my pants On a magazine Gonna have some free cocain Wanna wear my Calvin Kleins Then the world will be all mine
I'm rotting inside My flesh turns to dust Whisper "are you dying?" in my ear I'm so sick to death Tumors in my head Whisper "are you dying?" in my ear Black rose of death In my fit I clutch Thorns shread my fingertips And drips toxic blood Kiss me one last time Knock off my sweat Whisper "are you dying?" in my ear Cast my bones in rust Weave bounds of trust Whisper "are you dying?" in my ear
Don't wanna be an American idiot Don't want a nation under the new media Hey, can you hear the sound of hysteria? The subliminal mind-fuck America Welcome to a new kind of tension All across the alien nation Everything isn't meant to be OK Television dreams of tomorrow We're not the ones who're meant to follow For that's enough to walk you Well, maybe I'm the faggot America I'm not a part of a redneck agenda Now everybody do the propaganda And sing along in the age of paranoia Don't wanna be an American idiot One nation controlled by the media Information age of hysteria calling out to idiot America
I'm the son of rage and love, The Jesus of suburbia, From the bible of "none of the above", But there's nothing wrong with me, This is how I'm supposed to be, In a land of make believe, That don't believe in me The motto was just a lie It says: home is where your heart is, But what a shame, Cause everyone's heart, Doesn't beat the same, We're beating out of time City of the dead, At the end of another lost highway, Signs misleading to nowhere, City of the damned, Lost children with dirty faces today, No one really seems to care I don't care if you don't care Everyone Is So Full Of Shit! Born and raised by hypocrites, Hearts recycled but never saved, From the cradle to the grave, We are the kids of war and peace, From Anaheim to the middle east, We are the stories and disciples of, The Jesus Of Suburbia Land of make believe, And it don't believe in me, Land of make believe, And I don't believe, And I don't care To live and not to breathe, Is to die in tragedy, To run, to run away, To find what you believe, And I leave behind, This hurricane of fucking lies I don't feel any shame, I won't apologize When there ain't nowhere you can go, Running away from pain, When you've been victimized, Tales from another broken home
I walk a lonely road, The only one that I have ever known, Don't know where it goes, But it's home to me and I walk alone, I walk this empty street, On the blvd. of broken dreams, Where the city sleeps, And I'm the only one and I walk alone I walk alone, I walk alone, I walk alone, I walk a.. My shadow's the only one that walks beside me, My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating, Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me, 'Til then I walk alone I'm walking down the line, That divides me somewhere in my mind, On the borderline of the edge, And where I walk alone, Read between the lines of what's Fucked up and everything's alright, Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive, And I walk alone
Starry nights city lights, Coming down over me, Skyscrapers and stargazers, In my head Are we we are, are we we are, The waiting, unknown, This dirty town was burning down in my dreams, Lost and found city bound in my dreams And screaming, Are we we are, are we we are the waiting, And screaming, Are we we are, are we we are the waiting Forget me nots and second thoughts, Live in isolation, Heads or tales and fairytales in my mind, Are we we are, are we we are, The waiting, unknown The rage and love, the story of my life, The Jesus of suburbia is a lie And screaming Are we we are, are we we are the waiting, unknown
Take away the sensation inside, Bittersweet migraine in my head, It's like a throbbing toothache, Of the mind, I can't take this feeling anymore Drain the pressure from the swelling, This sensations overwhelming, Give me a long kiss goodnight, And everything will be alright, Tell me that I won't feel a thing Give me novacaine Out of body and out of mind, Kiss the demons out of my dreams, I get the funny feeling and that's alright, Jimmy says it's better than here Drain the pressure from the swelling, This sensations overwhelming, Give me a long kiss goodnight, And everything will be alright, Tell me Jimmy, I won't feel a thing Give me novacaine
She's an extraordinary girl, In an ordinary world, And she can't seem to get away He lacks the courage in his mind Like a child left behind, Like a pet left in the rain She's all alone again, Wiping the tears from her eyes Somedays he feels like dying, She gets so sick of crying She sees the mirror of herself, An image she wants to sell, To anyone willing to buy
Nobody likes you Everyone left you They are all without you having fun... Where have all the bastards gone? The underbelly stacks up ten high, The dummy failed the crash test, Now collecting unemployment checks, Like a flunkie along for the ride Where have all the riots gone, As the city's motto gets pulverized? "What's in love is now in debt", On your birth certificate, So strike the fucking match to light this fuse The town bishop is an extortionist, And he don't even know that you exist, Standing still when it's do or die, You better run for your fucking life It's not over till you're underground, It's not over before it's too late There is nothing left to analyze Where will all the martyrs go, When the virus cures itself? And where will we all go when it's too late? You're not the Jesus of suburbia, The St. Jimmy is a figment of, Your fathers rage and your mothers love, Made me the idiot America It's not over 'til you're underground, It's not over before it's too late, This city's burning "it's not my burden", It's not over before it's too later She said "I can't take this place, I'm leaving it behind", She said "I can't take this town, I'm leaving you tonight"
And in the darkest night, If my memory serves me right, I'll never turn back time Forgetting you, but not the time

Wasted Time

Wish List

~~comprare Etnies~~
~~incontrare luca♥~~
andare ad un concerto dei Green Day
farmi interrogare di greco
~~recuperare matematica~~
~~prendere un 9~~
~~comprare la maglietta dei Nirvana~~
comprare maglietta dei Distillers♥
comprare maglietta Guns'n'Roses *ç*
imparare a suonare la chitarra ._.
riuscire a capire cosa voglio
~~decidermi su che scuola fare._.~~
essere felice.